only once

everything swirling in my mind,
tears flowing down my face,
my legs cant carry me anymore,
but I keep on running
as fast as I can,
I dont care them laughing at me,
I dont care them pointing at me,
All I know is
I have to run... I must not stop.
I dont want to stop...
I dont want to think what you told me
before turning your back at me,
I dont want to remember that
hate in your eyes when
I said I am madly in love with you....
I dont want to realize
you had lied to me all these days...
becoz I love you so much.
And then suddenly I trip over
and fall , facing the ground.
I smell the ground and open my eyes,
I see a broken twig
maybe trampled by someone .... just like me.
I dont have the strength to move
A pain is killing me inside
I feel like screaming...
I see people surrounding me
as i lay there helpless,
my eyes still searching something,
I cant breathe anymore
I cant hear what they are saying,
I cant see anything clearly,
but still I keep on searching HIM
in the midst of the crowd,
I try to shout his name
but my throat is dry in thirst,
I am tired, I am weak, I am stupid,
All I want is to see you
one last time.... just once..
darkness fill my mind
'God where is he !!'
I gasp for air,
I know HE will come... he WILL..
my love is strong enough,
My love is true enough
to just let me see him,
smell him, hold him , for once
before I die...
I lay there just with the hope
that our eyes will meet for once,
and before I take my last breathe
I feel a slight hope
that maybe.. maybe oneday
our eyes will meet
and his dark eyes will pour into mine
but that day, I wont be
seeing through those still lifeless eyes...